(I Hope This Is) My Last Post For and About You
For the past 2 years, you were my human diary. You were my brother. You were my friend, bestfriend. You were my mentor. You were my financial adviser. You were my many firsts.
You taught me how to do things on my own. You taught me how to be brave and independent. You taught me how to be patient. You taught me how to value another person more than myself.
My to-do lists with you are too many. We almost did half of them still many remained unchecked. You acted like my real partner. You acted like you love me more than anyone else.
You made me happy. You made me cry. You made me suffer. You made me laugh. You made me think of my future, whether be it with you or not. You made sure I realize to love myself first before feeling down on things I cannot control.
You gave way for me to realize what I really want, what matters more, what needs to be done. You gave me a jar of memories, cheerful and tearful. You gave me a lot of lessons I will forever be thankful to you.
I cannot hate you, you know that, because I love you. I really do. I have written a lot about me and you, about us, and I guess this is what I am referring to “the end” of us. This maybe exaggeration for you and for some but this is what I feel as of the moment and since the start I let you be part of my life.
I’m not sure if you could read this, but if you happen to do, know that I’m not mad at you. I understand you and I’m thankful to you. I hope you can forgive yourself too and stop hating or blaming you for everything that we’ve been through. Stay safe, and don’t worry about me. I’ll do what you want me to do. I love you!